Sacrifice

Having to become an adult so quickly came with a lot of sacrifice. I had to miss all my homecomings, proms and sleep overs. I had to go from 15-30 in a matter of a few days. It was hard and no one will ever understand what that's really like. I missed out on most of my teenage years. I had to stay home not only because my dad made me but because I knew he needed me. I don't hold a grudge on him because of that. I was happy to stay at home and be there for him but it was upsetting at the time. I wanted to do all those things I missed out on but looking back they're not important. My sacrifices were worth the relationship that I now have with my dad. He's my best friend and my rock.

You Should Be Here

I heard this new song a few weeks ago by Cole Swindell. It's called You Should Be Here. It's a song about him losing his dad shortly after he signed his first record deal. The official video for it is heart wrenching. It had me thinking today about how I feel the same way he does. Both of our parents were taken to soon from us and we believe that they should be here. I wish my mom didn't have to miss all the big moments in my life. Since it is the new year the past week or so I have been reflecting on how this past year has gone for me. For the most part it has been pretty good. I got jobs subbing in the schools down in Nelsonville as well as here where I am now, Scott and I have moved to a new city, we've gotten a kitten, Scott got a steady job, we celebrated our two year anniversary of dating and our six years of friendship. I just wish she could be here for the all the milestones in my life. It's been a good year. I would be in a much better place if I could see your face.