Depression

Depression is nothing that can ever truly be explained. I will never be able to fully describe the feeling that I have when I'm going through a rough patch, which happens to be right now. Sometimes I feel okay and then other times I don't want to get out of bed. Everyday is different.

When mom first died everyday was bad for several years. But over the past few years I've been happier more often, I've chose happiness and to not let things bring me down but to focus on the good things in my life. The past few weeks have been bad though. I'm just feeling depressed an lonely. I'm really missing my family and their support. None of my family lives in Ohio with me anymore except my one Aunt and a few second and third cousins. My Aunt was supposed to come visit me the past two weekends and canceled on me. It hurts because all I want is to see my family. I hate not seeing them, they're the most important thing to me and I hate not seeing them. My dad and brother are who I wish I could see the most. They're the closest things I have to mom and I just want to spend time with them.

Depression can control your life and is hard to break from it. My advice to others when you're feeling this way is to have a day or two where you can feel sad and cry but after that you need to pick yourself up, dust off your shoulders and get back to your life.