Distance

They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder and I completely agree. I know it seems like my blog posts are just a lot of quotes that I seem to completely disagree with but it's my blog and I'm going to write what I want.

This quote though I actually believe in and have had some experience with absence. Obviously after mom died I immediately began appreciate what I had now that it was gone and longed to have it back. It was tough for the first few months because I dwelled on this quote all the time and just thought about how much I missed her and how much I would do anything to have her back.

 It was then after my freshmen year of college that my brother moved to Seattle when I had another experience with absence. My brother was always in the same state as me, when I was in high school he was off at college and that was tough but he at least came home sometimes or we could always drive down and visit him. When I realized that he was moving I knew that I wasn't going to see him as much anymore which really broke my heart, and unfortunately I still to this day am lucky if I get to see him once a year.

About a year or two after my brother left for Seattle my dad's plant that he worked at was closing and he ended up being transferred to a new plant in Kansas City. I felt like at this time I was losing a my family because I was the only one that was left here in Ohio. It was heartbreaking and I didn't really know how to handle it all. The one person that was my rock and that I could count and rely on was now gone as well.

Finally this past year my boyfriend got a job about an hour away from where we were currently living and he had to move home with his parents because it was only about 30 minutes away from his home. We were apart for about 3 months and those were some of the toughest months because I was so use to being with him everyday, but we made it work and made it through.


I've had to deal with a lot of permanent loss and temporary loss in my life and I will tell you that it does not get easier each time someone is gone. But I know that when they are gone I appreciate everything they have done for me in the past and makes them want them back that much more. I grow fonder of their qualities and our relationship.